In high school and early college, when a lot of kids are just flying by the seat of their pants and doing whatever feels right, I spent a lot of time looking into myself. I was blessed to figure out who I was. Knowing myself brought me a confidence when I graduated college and interviewed for jobs. It ensured that I married the right man. It helped me grow into my career and my church.
Fast forward a decade or so.
I still know myself, but my entire circumstance has changed. I had a baby. I quit my job. I pledged to continue working as a volunteer with an organization I'd done work with when I was employed. (That's been hard.)
So here I am. With a college degree I earned with my hard work. With the first phases of my career gone and officially "on hold." With a precious six-month-old son. With an ever-changing daily routine. (It's true what they say: as soon as you get the baby figured out, he changes it up on you.)
Deep at my core, I still know myself. I am truly thankful, grateful to have that part figured out. That is the part of me that will never change.
But I haven't quite figured out who I am as a wife and mother whose sole job is to care for husband and son. I don't doubt for a second that it's where I'm supposed to be. But I don't have it figured out just yet...
1 comment:
I can totally relate. There's no doubt that being a sahm has given me a new perspective on who God made me to be. And where I find my worth. It's hard, I'm still figuring it all out, and not every day is easy. But I'm so grateful for other moms who help me thru it - I know you've got a ton of support, too!! So nice to know we're not alone :)
Post a Comment